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Cold Turkey on breath mints starting today. I’ve started to eat too many of them.

Random Number Generator has moved slightly downward – it appears as if the 2 kilos UP I was last week is gone – hard to tell for sure on this old scale though. I will follow this Dr. K plan for another month and then make the decision on whether it is for me or not. I am about to the point of stopping all efforts to lose weight and just live my life at the weight I am at. (All you meat and water people can just keep your traps shut – I’m not interested.)

This is what I’m shooting for:
61P/153F/49C

And this is what I ended up with:
Protein: 49 (12%)
Fat: 137 (73%)
Net carbs: 52 (14%)
Alcohol: 0
Calories: 1658

Food Breakdown:
6AM: 75 gms blackberries, 60 gms mascarpone, 90 gms greek yogurt
8AM: cappuccino
9:30AM: cappuccino, coconut mcnugget
1PM: lamb shank & veggie soup
3:30PM: jello w/whipped cream, chicken broth
5:30PM: 1 oz madadamia nuts
7:30PM: 3 rice cakes w/butter & vegemite, 2 oz lamb

Two week averages:
Calories: 1765
Fat: 144.5 (74%)
Carb: 54-12=42 Net (12%)
Protein: 53 (12%)
Alcohol: 4 (2%)

Four week averages:
Calories: 1761
Fat: 144 (74%)
Carb: 52-13=39 Net (11%)
Protein: 56 (13%)
Alcohol: 5 (2%)

This is what I’m shooting for:
61P/153F/49C

And this is what I ended up with:
Protein: 51 (13%)
Fat: 133.0 (74%)
Net carbs: 52-6=46 (13%)
Alcohol: 0
Calories: 1610

Food Breakdown:
6AM: peppermint tea w/ 1 oz cream
8AM: 75 gms blackberries, 90 gms greek yogurt, 50 gms mascarpone
10:30AM: coconut mcnugget, cappuccino
1PM: vegemite & butter on rice crackers, 1 boiled egg w/ mayo, coconut mcnugget
5PM: SF jello w/ 50 gms mascarpone
8:30PM: lamb shank & veggie soup (OMG it is good!)

This is what I’m shooting for:
61P/153F/49C

And this is what I ended up with:
Protein: 46 (10%)
Fat: 161 (77%)
Net carbs: 47 (13%)
Alcohol: 0
Calories: 1885

Food Breakdown:
6AM: coconut mcnugget, peppermint tea
8AM: 2 rice cakes w/ peanut butter
10AM: 1 TBSP ricotta cheese, 1 cappuccino
1PM: 2 cups green beans roasted w/1 & 1/2 TBSP olive oil, lettuce salad w/blue cheese dressing, 1 CO mcnugget
Rest of the day: 2 ryvita w/ pate, 2 oz lamb loin, 1/2 sweet potato w/ 1T butter, 4 macadamia nuts, 2 cups chicken broth

Am getting sick, I think. Am also feeling very compulsive. Not hungry – just compulsive. I’m always one bite away from a binge. I was going to be over on my carbs if I ate an entire sweet potato so even though I wanted to eat it ALL, I only ate 1/2 of it. I could eat more protein but I’m not interested in protein….isn’t that strange. I want to lose more fat.

OK, I’m done eating for the night. I’ll probably have another cup of tea – just to keep myself hydrated in case I’m getting the crap that Mr. W has. If I get it, and it’s anything like he has, it’s not going to be pleasant.

This is what I’m shooting for:
61P/153F/49C

And this is what I ended up with:
Protein: 43 (10%)
Fat: 144 (71%)
Net carbs: 49 (14%)
Alcohol: 15 (6%)
Calories: 1845

Food Breakdown:
6AM: 1.5 oz coconut milk, coconut mcnugget
8AM: 2 ryvita w/ 1 T butter & vegemite, cappuccino
1:30PM: lettuce salad w/ blue cheese dressing (sour cream, mayo, blue cheese, cream), coconut mcnugget
5PM: tea w/ 1 TBSP cream, 1 oz macadamia nuts
7:30PM: 3 small slices roast lamb, roast veg (1/4 potato, 1/2 sweet potato, 1 carrot & 1/2 cappsicum), 1 square Lindt 85% dark chocolate & 1 inch piece shortbread cookie, 1 glass red wine

Today has started out with feelings of wanting to eat – yet I’m not hungry. The compulsive eating demon is alive and well today. Crap. It’s probably because the last 2 days have been difficult to balance my protein/fat/carbs because of being out and about – and last night I wasn’t feeling well. And, I have 2 more days of it as we have houseguests arriving. It puts me off my game a bit when I have to work around others. Plus, the bottom line is that I do eat differently than others. I’m ok with that, but sometimes I feel judged and I don’t like that feeling.

Slight bump in the road discovered at about 4:30AM….today is ANZAC Day. We had about 30 minutes of panic as we have houseguests arriving for the weekend about 11AM and seriously, we don’t have any food in the house. A quick check on the net and we discovered the grocery store will open at 1PM so we will be able to get food for dinner tonight and the rest of the weekend. Lunch will be a cheese omelet with salad. Hopefully they’re not expecting the typical seafood lunch we serve!

This is what I’m shooting for:
61P/153F/49C

And this is what I ended up with:
Protein: 67 (14%)
Fat: 133 (61%)
Net carbs: 57 (13%)
Alcohol: 30 (11%)
Calories: 1988

Over on carbs and protein today but am not overly concerned. We have houseguests this weekend which makes it difficult.

Food Breakdown:
6AM: coconut mcnugget
7:30AM: tea w/ 1.5 oz coconut milk, 2 ryvita crackers w/1 T butter & vegemite
9AM: cappuccino, coconut mcnugget
2PM:: 2 egg omelet w/ 1/4 C shredded cheddar, lettuce & 1 oz Paul Newman dressing
7:30PM: 1 TBSP chicken pate, 3 crackers, 3 oz steak, potato casserole, roasted roma tomato, 1 glass champagne, 1 glass red wine

This is what I’m shooting for:
61P/153F/49C

And this is what I ended up with:
Protein: 41 (10%)
Fat: 152 (80%)
Net carbs: 33 (11%)
Alcohol: 0
Calories: 1754

Food Breakdown:
6AM: coconut mcnugget
7AM: 1 cup mushrooms fried in 2 TBSP butter, cappuccino
10AM: coconut mcnugget
1PM: 2 cups roasted green beans w/ 2TBSP olive oil, 3 oz chicken thigh
4:30PM: cuppa tea w/ 1.5 oz coconut milk, 2 oz cream cheese w/1 oz shredded coconut
7:30PM: 2 ryvita crackers, 1 tbsp butter & vegemite (upset stomach)

I’m just not a ‘deep’ person most of the time. Sometimes I think I’d like to be, but I can never quite pull it off. I have begun subscribing to some yoga blogs and some of these people are so dang deep and esoteric and obtuse that I can’t figure out what the heck they are trying to say. lalalalala….blahblahblah…..blahdeblahdeblah…… I just want to say….SPIT IT OUT! Then again, that’s probably not a very yogini-like spirit, is it?

Belt is on notch 6 consistently now. And comfortable to sit down with it on notch 6. whoo hoo! Still feel very ‘pudgy’ in the stomach area but wonder if it’s because maybe, just maybe I’m losing some fat from that area and it’s not so much ‘pudgy’ but more ‘flabby’ – like a balloon with the air being let out a bit? Who knows. It’s hard to keep in touch with a body which has a mind connected to it that lies to it! Does your mind lie to you or is it just me?

Day 4 of 100 yoga commitment completed – did it during Jon Stewart but it still counts.

Day 3 of increased water consumption completed. Not as much as yesterday but still enough to feel sloshy.

This is what I’m shooting for:
61P/153F/49C

And this is what I ended up with:
Protein: 63 (16%)
Fat: 121 (67%)
Net carbs: 35 (10%)
Alcohol: 15 (6%)
Calories: 1629

Food Breakdown:
6AM: coconut mcnugget, 2 ryvita crackers w/ 1 tbsp butter & vegemite
9AM: cappuccino
1PM: 1 oz macadamia nuts
2PM: spinach & cheese quiche plus small salad in cafe’ (It was delicious! Think it’s the best quiche I’ve ever had. I didn’t even need to eat it all – gave the crust and the last few bites to Mr. W to finish up.)
3PM: coconut mcnugget
7:30PM: 3 oz steak, salad endive, tomato & paul newman dressing, 1 glass white wine

This is what I’m shooting for:
61P/153F/49C

Day 3 of 100 yoga commitment completed.

Day 2 of increased water consumption completed. I’m waterlogged. 3.25 Liters as of when I post this. I think I’m going to stop for the day.

Tomorrow we’re starting our weekly excursion to the beaches of the South Coast. We have a book that lists ALL the beaches and we’ve decided that once a week, we will go to a beach we haven’t been to before. Mr. W will fish and I will read/walk. I’m looking forward to it. It’s a nice winter project!

And this is what I ended up with:
Protein: 52 (13%)
Fat: 140 (74%)
Net carbs: 46 (13%)
Alcohol: 0
Calories: 1700

Food Breakdown:
6AM: 2 ryvita crackers w/ 1 TBSP butter & vegemite, 1/2 cup ricotta, 2 oz whipped cream cheese & 1 TBSP cocoa

1PM: cabbage slaw (2 cups raw veg + 3 TBSP mayo), 2 coconut mcnuggets

dinner: 3 oz meatloaf, 1/2 roasted sweet potato w/1 TBSP butter, 1/2 cup roasted pumpkin

Doesn’t feel like I’ve eaten much today when I look at this – but I was satisfied and I was close to all my ‘numbers’. Maybe it’s that I’ve been used to eating so MUCH in the past that this proper amount of food, at least the volume of this food, seems so small in comparison. It is different to not be reaching for protein (tuna, chicken, cheese) throughout the day when I feel a little twing of hunger. It’s a bit of a ‘retraining of my mind’ process.

Ok, ok, ok…..I’m increasing my water intake. Yes, I’m doing it while kicking and screaming and saying BUT THEY SAID I COULD JUST DRINK TO THIRST. However, I had a fitness assessment today and I am seriously dehydrated according to the gyms fancy-dancy tanika scale-and have been for over a year but no one actually pointed it out to me (at 38% and should be closer to 50%). So, starting today, I’m back on the water. Ok Fred, ok Lisa, ok Rowe, ok people……I hear you and (GROWL) I am drinking my water.

Day 2 of 100 on Yoga challenge completed.
Yoga class tonight – I’m looking forward to it.

Based upon new information on the Dr. K plan, I’ve readjusted my numbers. This is what I’m shooting for:
61P/153F/49C

And this is what I ended up with:
Protein: 56 (13%)
Fat: 139 (74%)
Net carbs: 45 (13%)
Alcohol: 0
Calories: 1740

Food Breakdown:
6AM: Coconut McNugget

9AM: 2 cups fresh squeezed beet/celery/apple juice, 2 ryvita crackers w/1 TBSP butter & vegemite, cappuccino

11AM: Coconut McNugget, tea

1:30PM: 3 oz chicken thigh, 2 TBSP mayo, 1 celery stalk, 1 cup SF jello, 30 gms whipping cream, 25gms mascarpone

5:30PM: protein shake (3/4 scoop protein powder, 1 5.6oz can coconut milk)